Publishing, proclaiming

How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him who brings good news, who publishes peace, who brings good news of happiness, who publishes salvation, who says to Zion, "Your God reigns." —Isaiah 52:7

This is my calling.

And now the question, how on earth do I walk this out, now?

And then again, why on earth do I yearn for other things in life to fall in place when I have such clear definition for my life right now?

Why do I want marriage so much, when I have this life, when I see God's hand at work in me, when I know I can't do this later in life?

How can I make the best use of this time, now, since this is where I am called to life, now?