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High school seniors are pretty close to the top of my "favorite to photograph" list. And spending an afternoon shooting Kathryne Carter was absolutely incredible. How else would you describe spending three hours with a girl with a passion for God, photography, pro-life activism, Mexico, and hair design? Nothing short of fabulous, just like Kat. Thanks for an incredible shoot!
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"It is a good day to me when Thou givest me a glimpse of myself." This is one of my favorite quotes from the book The Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotionals, by Arthur Bennett. God has given me many glimpses of myself in the past several weeks, and I'm learning a lot about myself. These lessons are very good, and very painful at the same time.
I'm just learning that my insides aren't as clean as I thought.
That my love isn't as pure as I thought.
That my mind is more deceitful than I thought.
That my motivations are more selfish than I thought.
And that God is incredibly more gracious and faithful than I thought or expected.
These are good lessons. Any time I see the depth of my own depravity and sinfulness I'm grateful. It hurts, because, once again, it shows how far away from God I really am, and how much farther away I have the capacity to go. But it is always good, because God's grace is what shows me my sin and draws me back to Him.
This week I began reading through Song of Solomon in the Amplified Bible. I love to read this version every once in a while because it reminds me that Scriptre has depth as well as breadth, and it challenges me to dig and press on and pursue a greater knowledge of Christ and His Word.
As I've read through Song of Solomon this time, I actually paid attention to the footnotes, which are, in fact, questions as opposed to notes. They challenge me to examine my heart and my relationship with Christ. I've included the questions below, along with the corresponding excerpts from Songs.
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Tell me, O You whom my soul loves, where You pasture Your flocks... Songs 1:7
Does my spirit crave the Divine Shepherd, even in the presence of the best that the wold can offer me?
I can feel His left hand under my head and His right hand embraces me! Songs 2:6
Do I have a constant sense of my Shepherd's presence, regardless of my surroundings?
Arise, My love, My fair one, and come away. Songs 2:13
Do I take time to meet my Good Shepherd each day, letting Him tell me of His love, and cheering His heart with my interest in Him?
Let Me see your face, let Me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet and your face is lovely. Songs 2:14
Do I realize that my voice lifted in praise and song is sweet to Him, or do I withhold it?
Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards [of our love], for our vineyards are in blossom. Songs 2:15
What is my greatest concern, the thing about which most of all I want Christ's help? When He asks to hear my voice, what do I tell him?
Come away with me from Lebanon, my [promised] bride, come with me from Lebanon. Depart from... the lion's dens, from the mountains of the leopards. Songs 3:8
Do I heed Christ when He bids me to come way from the lions' den of temptation and dwell with Him?
Oh, I pray that the [cold] north wind and the [soft] south wind may blow upon my garden, that its spices may flow out [in abundance for You in whom my soul delights]. Songs 4:16
Am I willing to have the north wind of adversity blow upon me, if it will better fit me for Christ's presence and companionship?
[But weary from a day in the vineyards, I had already south my rest] I had put off my garments-- how could I [again] put them on? Songs 5:3
In my weariness from earthly cares, do I hesitate to answer when the Divine Shepherd knocks at my door, and so turn Him from me?
His voice and speech are exceedingly sweet; yes, He is altogether lovely [the whole of him delights and is precious]. This is my Beloved, and this is my Friend, o daughters of Jerusalem. Songs 5:16
Is my Savior unquestioningly the One altogether lovely, the One above all others most precious to me? Can I tell how and why Christ is more to me than any human being or than all earthly possessions?
So keep em' coming, these lines on the road.
And keep me responsible, be it a light or heavy load.
And keep me guessing with these blessings in disguise.
And I'll walk with grace my feet and faith my eyes.
—Caedmon's Call, "Faith My Eyes"
I'm afraid of change. I'm afraid to change. I'm afraid of growth. I'm afraid to be stretched. I'm afraid that it will hurt. I'm afraid to try something new. I'm afraid of failing. I'm afraid to succeed.
And I'm struggling to trust God with the unknowns and the uncomfortables.
I know that He is my provider. But somehow, for some strange reason, I feel like I have to provide for myself in case something happens... or something like that. I'm afraid to leave the security and stability of the "known" to branch out and do the unknown. I know God will provide for me. I know that, deep down inside, I really want to jump out and do this. I know that I will be more fulfilled and more stable in the unknown than I am in the known.
But when it's time to actually make that decision, I look down at this great, big vast unknown... and forget that it's actually...
God.
Not an unknown.
I'm tired of my stupid "try to maintain comfortable control of my life" mindset that I so often fall into. I'm ready to trust Him.
But I'm still struggling to do it.
Pray for me, if you think of it.
The "beach" that was actually the bay.
My sister turned 18 yesterday. To celebrate, we went to the beach with Hannah, Hannah, and Sara.
It was an early morning.
3-hour drive.
Sara Groves, Caedmon's Call, BarlowGirl, Sons of Korah, and very cool African groove.
Fort Story- our planned destination, which turned into an Army checkpoint, a couple of bumps in the road, two lighthouses viewed from our car window, and a quick turn around.
The "beach" where we ate lunch that turned out to be the bay.
Swimming in the ocean.
Jumping from crabs.
Tackling each other on the beach.
Glamor shots.
Dancing to shake off the sand.
Sneaking into a hotel bathroom to change for the ride home.
Getting stuck in a 7-mile back-up on I-64.
Rocking it out to "The Little Mermaid," "Lion King," and "Mulan."
Espresso-bar-hopping after dinner.
Running through the mall to get to Starbucks before they closed.
Crashing at our house.
A very late night.
It was a good day.
Hannah, the natural model.
Hannah who loves life.
An attempt at a self-portrait.
The birthday girl herself. She asked. So we buried her.
Sara. Gorgeous.
Amie, modeling her new sarong.
In search of espresso.
We found it.
Friends.
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